Feeling Overwhelmed: it’s a PTSD thing

For the past two weeks, I have walked around feeling like someone has beat the stuffings right out of me, and I am just one hard slap away from being knocked unconscious. The fact that I have also been beating myself up for not handling the situation in a more perfect, mature, loving Christian way, hasn’t helped.

And… this coming Wednesday, three days from today, my beloved husband is having surgery. It’s only to repair a couple of tears in his right knee, but still, it worries me, because it will be done under general anesthesia and my husband is 71 and has had three heart attacks. Plus he tends to fall easily.

Plus he has lots of upcoming appointments, most of them medical, and all of them at VA hospitals that are at least 100 miles away, and one is 200 miles away. My husband loves to drive, he says that driving energizes him. But driving long distances stresses and wears me out, thanks to some bad car crashes in my past. I try not to drive much, but now, until my husband heals completely from the surgery on his right knee, I will have to drive him to all these appointments.

Eek.

I wrote the following post about feeling overwhelmed, four years ago this month. Right now seems like a good time to reblog it. Comments are closed on the original post and I don’t know how to open them again, since WP changed the editor. But I will open comments here, on this page. Feel free to share how you might relate to this topic.

God bless and thank you so much for reading. ❤❤

A Blog About Healing From PTSD

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TWO WEEKS AGO, when I started this new blog, I had big ideas for my first post. I was thrilled that the name I wanted — A Blog About Healing From PTSD — was available. I picked out the theme, loaded a header picture, wrote my description page, and got all the settings the way I like them.

But when I started to write my first post, I froze.

No, my problem isn’t writer’s block. I’m not depressed, not anxious, not sick, and I’m certainly not too busy to find the time to write. My reason for waiting two weeks before writing my first post is something that happens to me a lot, in all kinds of situations. It’s maddening, it’s debilitating, and most people don’t seem to understand it at all.

My problem: I AM OVERWHELMED.

When I’m overwhelmed, the simplest tasks are…

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29 thoughts on “Feeling Overwhelmed: it’s a PTSD thing

  1. Valeria Ellis February 2, 2020 / 9:13 am

    I can totally relate to feeling overwhelmed. I spend way too much time there. I don’t have PTSD, but I do have some anxiety issues! You and your husband are on my prayer list.

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  2. @PreacherBiker February 2, 2020 / 12:09 pm

    I will have quick healing
    I don’t want you to be stressed my love
    Hugs and thanks for all the prayers

    • Lady Quixote/Linda Lee February 2, 2020 / 12:16 pm

      I love you soooooooooo much. I just want you healthy and feeling well. And I’m sorry for complaining about all the driving. Gah, I am such a mess, sometimes. But at least I didn’t smack the woman at church this morning who kept saying to me “Don’t doubt, don’t doubt, don’t doubt, don’t doubt,” over and over again. Grrr!!!

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  3. Amy Blount February 2, 2020 / 12:36 pm

    Don’t be so hard on yourself over the “thing” that happened on WP. There is a certain vibe coming from that individual that makes people feel caged or threatened into an argument. Then after stirring things up, the individual plays victim rather than looking inside. You did pretty well with it, I think.
    I hate driving too.
    You’re blessed with a sweet husband.
    God bless.

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  4. mrsmariposa2014 February 2, 2020 / 1:14 pm

    Oh, thank you so much for reposting this. I relate to everything you describe. Sending prayers your way as you deal with all that’s coming up. Remember God’s got you.

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    • Lady Quixote/Linda Lee February 2, 2020 / 1:23 pm

      I love that, “God’s got you.” Amen!

      I’m sorry you can relate, because I know how painful it can be. But it’s also helpful to know we aren’t alone, isn’t it? ❤❤

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    • ibikenyc February 3, 2020 / 9:11 am

      I am praying for him and you. Please let us know what happens.

      Thank you so much for reposting this! I get this way a lot, and beat the stuffing outta myself / get REALLY frustrated / feel hopeless. I never came even close to thinking it had to do with my C-PTSD.

      Fortunately, I don’t have too many “total crash” days, although when I do, I am merciless with myself: “What is WRONG with you?!”

      However, I regularly experience what I’ve come to think of as “That Scatterbrained Feeling,” where I sometimes can’t even decide what to eat. Or I obsess for hours about whether to take the bus or the train, or which bank branch / post office / supermarket to go to.

      At least I do have a sense of humor about it, and I’ve got to where I see it for what it is and consciously avoid making any significant decisions when I feel that way.

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      • Lady Quixote/Linda Lee February 14, 2020 / 9:46 am

        Oh my goodness… how did I approve this precious comment, and not reply to it? It must have been one of those times when I was rushing to go somewhere or do something, and figured that I would approve now, reply later.

        It’s crazy, isn’t it, how we can get sometimes with all the stress of daily life, especially if we have PTSD, too. I’m sorry you can relate to it though, but very grateful that we can meet and share our stories through WordPress.

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        • ibikenyc February 14, 2020 / 10:51 am

          It’s perfectly okay! Sometimes there’s nothing to add, and you DID “Like” it! (But it’s nice that you noticed.) ❤

          (Goin' through this right now: Bullying myself to leave the house [pretty sure I'll succeed]. Take this bus. No, take THAT bus. Take the third. Walk up to the railroad. No, walk up to the FOURTH bus and go that way. Walk to AND from the railroad; that way you won't spend carfare. Blah blah blah!)

          I, too, am grateful for WordPress AND for you! 🙂

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    • ibikenyc February 3, 2020 / 9:12 am

      I love this, too: “God’s got you.” 🙂

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      • mrsmariposa2014 February 3, 2020 / 11:33 am

        I’m glad my words could speak to you. I understand everything you wrote above. Sending prayers your way, too. ☺

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        • ibikenyc February 3, 2020 / 5:42 pm

          Awww; thank you for your prayers 🙂 Same to you.

          It’s nice to be understood, but I’m sorry you go through it too.

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  5. Beverley February 3, 2020 / 7:51 am

    Feeling overwhelmed is something that affect all of us especially the young people. Some people symptoms are worst than other. When my children are feeling overwhelm I encourage them with Psalms 61. When your heart is overwhelm go to the rock of that is higher than you – the rock of the Lord Jesus Christ. Spend some time to meditate and think on His Word. He will pull you out of it. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. Have a blessed day.

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  6. Tim Shey February 13, 2020 / 10:21 pm

    I have hitchhiked the United States for most of 23 years and I have met a lot of combat veterans with various levels of PTSD. It seems like the common denominator with combat veterans with PTSD is that they like to be alone and away from the madding crowd. I think they are overwhelmed by all the different personalities and they can’t cope with the games that people play on other people.

    Years ago I was talking with a Vietnam Vet from 1965 and I told him about what I went through with my family year ago and he got really angry and said very forcefully that I was suffering from PTSD. That was quite a shock to my system because I thought only combat veterans suffered from PTSD.
    The Lord showed me a few years later that I needed to forgive certain people from my past and that really helped me a lot. Praise the Lord!

    Here is a little more on my story:

    A Conversation with a Vietnam Veteran
    https://hitchhikeamerica.wordpress.com/2012/04/05/a-conversation-with-a-vietnam-veteran/

    I am glad that I found your blog. God bless you and your family.

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    • Lady Quixote/Linda Lee February 14, 2020 / 1:14 am

      Tim, it’s so good to meet you. Thank you for the links, you have a fascinating blog. I read several of your hitchhiking stories, and I’ve bookmarked the page so I can read the rest tomorrow.

      God bless you, my brother. Good night.

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    • Lady Quixote/Linda Lee February 14, 2020 / 9:18 am

      Tim, I’m now up to chapter 20 in your hitchhiking stories. I want to buy your book, but I see that it’s out of print.

      I have only ever picked up 3 hitchhikers in my life. The most recent happened just a little over a year ago. A very tall young man, wearing a backpack that looked heavier than me, was walking with a massive Pitbull on a leash. The hitchhiker had his thumb out. I chuckled to myself and thought “Good luck finding somebody crazy enough to pick you up.” And in that moment, I sensed that the Lord wanted me to go back and give that man and his Pitbull a ride.

      The ride lasted 90 miles. Deveron Armstrong was the hitchiker’s name. His sweet dog is named Skittles. Deveron and I talked about the Lord, all the way from Tucumcari to Clovis, New Mexico. It was about 20 degrees out and windy. It was a blessing to give Deveron and Skittles a ride.

      If you ever come across Deveron and Skittles in your travels, please tell Deveron that Linda with the red Nissan in New Mexico is still praying for him.

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  7. Tim Shey February 14, 2020 / 9:50 am

    About my books: my publisher went out of business back in 2017, so I put my books on my blog so that people can read them for free. I would rather have my books in paperback than online, but in the long run, maybe it will be better for my books to be online. When my books were available (on Amazon), what I didn’t like is that they were charging too much money for them: what I wanted to do was to buy a few copies and pass them out to people on my hitchhiking travels, but I never had a whole lot of money to buy the books.

    Author/Hitchhiker
    https://hitchhikeamerica.wordpress.com/about/

    I have hitchhiked through New Mexico many times over the years. I worked on an apple farm in Embudo, New Mexico for a couple of months back in 1986. I have hitchhiked through Clovis, New Mexico at least once; I stayed with some Christian friends near Lovington, NM for a few days many years ago. New Mexico has some really beautiful territory.

    Here are a few stories about New Mexico:

    The Only Time Someone Pulled a Knife on Me
    https://hitchhikeamerica.wordpress.com/2012/09/24/the-only-time-someone-pulled-a-knife-on-me/

    Thy name shall be called no more Jacob, but Israel
    https://hitchhikeamerica.wordpress.com/2013/02/07/thy-name-shall-be-called-no-more-jacob-but-israel/

    The Spirit Driveth Him into the Wilderness
    https://hitchhikeamerica.wordpress.com/2012/11/14/the-spirit-driveth-him-into-the-wilderness/

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